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*surrenders* My last post was kind of a lie. Okay, it was, but I didn't plan on at least have of it to be, and it was mostly by omission. I'm moving journals, and only adding those I felt I had a mutual friendship with, who I felt comfortable with, who I actually talked to.

I won't be posting fic here anymore, but I will be linking it at my community moonlitcrawl and sometimes, I'm sure at teamjoick
But I have separation problems, and I already miss this stupid, open journal, but I got caught up in NOT being able to share my feelings without turning comments off because I was afraid. I don't know why I'm afraid or worried, but I am.

If I didn't add you, that doesn't mean I don't like you. It just means that at this point in time, I don't feel like we're really on the same page. That's all.

Hey guys... This doesn't have anything to do with my last few posts [okay, it probably does, but I don't really know why I'm doing this]. This isn't like a goodbye, really, because I plan on commenting on your LJ posts, etc. But I'm 90% certain I'll only be posting fics from now on. Don't hold me to that, but also, don't be surprised if I'm not spamming your f-list anymore.

Anyway, I love you guys, thanks for being such total and complete sweethearts!

I'm going to have to kill myself, obviously. [And don't read that like you're actually reading it. Twice in my life I've been talked to about suicide for saying things jokingly and I don't need that again.]

To make my explanation easier, I'm going to un-Private the post I made disappear last night. Here it is. I don't want to talk about the video. I don't want to look at the video or anything to do with it. I watched it all the way through some time later with sound, and realized I lost him in more than one way [It isn't about this as much, but the underwear model in the background, the pelvic thrust? I... no. I didn't know, Nick.]. So yes, this post was completely serious, and I wasn't trying to be awesome. I was trying to get the guilt of it off my back or something, and yeah, I legit studied his face for a while.

If you have talked to me about it, or plan on it, I won't be saying anything back, sorry. Like I said, I'm obviously delusional to have that effect me so much. God I hate this. I just want to take last night back SO much, and I can't. I can't un-watch it. I can't stop knowing that I did that...

Just to clarify: I'm not at all disappointed in Nick. I'm disappointed that I somehow led myself to believe I knew him, and disappointed that I found out I didn't.

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Now to get the hell off the subject.

I just woke up from a dream B was in. God you guys, it was brilliant. I was at church because my [dead, by the way; she was alive in the dream though] grandma was visiting and I'm not sure why that would get me to church let alone his church, but okay. So at first I didn't look for him because I didn't want to get all sad, but then I noticed he wasn't up front, and looked in the pews and there he was sitting and I just smiled. Every time I looked at him, I smiled. And at his wife too [but maybe that's because she didn't look like Shawna-Lee in my dream at all]. And idk what my brain is... LMAO, but he had frosted the front section of his hair, but I just laughed behind my hand a little, and then I was like, "Oh okay... B, I guess on you it's kinda hot." Only I've never called B 'hot' in my life. He's handsome and gentlemanly.

But anyway, it was nice. I didn't cry, or hide, or run. I was just happy. It was amazing.

This always seems to happen though. It's weird. Every time I have like some sort of weird crisis with JB, I always end up thinking about B, and he just makes me happy. It's like the only time he doesn't even make me a little bit sad, is when I'm freaking internally over something about the Jonas Brothers, and then other wise, it's JB who I think of to take my mind off B.

( I think I said this in a weird way. )

I just wish that I could have them at the same time, and never be sad/freak out over them. I think I'd be happy, almost.

This is driving me fucking crazy. Or I was crazy, and this is just fortifying it.

I need distractions. Non-Jonas Brothers distractions for a while until my head and whatever else chills the hell out.

Hell, give me non-Disney distractions while we're at it.

*looks at the very few people left on her f-list from before JB happened*

ETA: THIS VIDEO. *_* I'm pretty sure I ship Boofus!Spencer/Hal and then sometimes when T-Bo isn't too 'G', he gets in on the action. "Why don't you take the time to notice me...?" Like, Hal is amazing. I need more Hal in my life. I mean, that whole exchange. I love it so much. And then, "I'm hideous." "Go ahead, get comfortable." God. This segment, guys <3

And aww... Spencer and Sam watched a movie [kind of] together! But does anyone else find it creepy that a bra, used to support a female in the bosom area, has a man's voice? Or am I just over-reaching there?

*_* I think I just fell in love with Nathan Kress... What the fuck. Habla mas espanol, senor Kress...

ETA2: Uh guys... WHY DID NO ONE INFORM ME THAT JOSH PECK WAS IN AN EPISODE OF ICARLY?! GUYS, THIS IS IMPORTANT INFORMATION! JOSH PECK IS - HE'S JOSH DAMN IT! I NEED HIM. WHY WOULD NO ONE TELL ME THESE THINGS??

Also, it's pretty obvious I need to see What Goes Up Josh Peck AND Hilary Duff. A++ After Heather and I go see Greta together, we're totally renting this movie and watching it too. AND OH MY FUCKING GOD. SHE'S PLAYING BONNIE, WHICH IS AWESOME, BUT YOU GUYS GUESS WHO'S CLYDE! GUESS! KEVIN ZEGERS. HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT :D Like Bonnie and Clyde let's hitch a ride and ditch this town... And other movies I still have to see? Cherrybomb and Do Começo Ao Fim [that I'm going to see with cayskank ]!

You're lost to me;
I can't see you...

If you just read any part of my post that just disappeared, please disregard it as I go through my weird little, psychotic identity crisis. Thanks for never speaking about this ever again, correcting, or validating any statements made within.

This post is ridiculous, and I know it is and that's why I turned off the comments, because I over-react to everything and I know. I KNOW. And I'm sorry. And I really wish you guys would finally de-friend me, because I'm really starting to wonder what will do it, and maybe this will be it.

It makes me sick to my stomach. Both the reason for this post and the fact that I had this reaction, and I'm just kind of freaking out right now. Feel free to watch the video and ignore the rest of everything else. I'm gonna go take a seat in a whole other universe and mope. Enjoy?


( What the fuck, what the fuck, what the FUCK. )

Title: Matters of Import
Author: Severus_Falter
Rating: PG-13
Characters: Joe Jonas, Nick Jonas, Kevin Jonas
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Lips against lips.
Disclaimer: It will soon become very obvious that I have no affiliation with those who work with or are in fact the Jonas Brothers.( Where it ends up... )

Lol...

I've been light-headed and dizzy a lot lately, so my mom was concerned. So this morning she asked if I wanted to check my blood and finally I decided that I wanted to see what it feels like anyway, so might as well make sure I'm not having weird blood sugar problems. I tried like three different times, and nothing. Then my mom took the lance and did it for me. I finally *felt* it poke me. She had to squeeze SO hard just to get any blood out at all and it was only like a third of what was needed for the test strip. I was cracking up so hard. And she's like, "This is serious. You're so dehydrated. You're drinking more today than you have in your whole life." lmao... I was like, "Wow, I have no blood. Awesome!! *_*"

I guess we're trying again tomorrow. It doesn't hurt if you have NO blood, but it hurts a little if you have a little blood. It hurts more to have your mother squeeze your finger in a death grip. Just to let you all know...


- And obviously not a medical crisis, but idk how else to tag this.

Title: Keeping Secrets
Author: Severus_Falter
Rating: PG
Characters: Joe Jonas, Nick Jonas, Kevin Jonas
Genre: Angst, Fluff, Pre-Slash
Summary: Kevin has had it figured out for a really long time, and it's entirely possible, from the way Joe looked at him, that knowing all these years has made him into an even bigger freak than what Joe would be considered.
Disclaimer: It will soon become very obvious that I have no affiliation with those who work with or are in fact the Jonas Brothers.

( He might have tried to get Joe to kiss Nick awake once, but he never told mom that. )

Accounts from the Camp Rock set from last night.

He and Nick would also be tackling each other often.

houseofclass at CUF.

and of course nick started a slowclap like he always does. boy loves his slowclaps
he was also all kinds of smiley and happy and it was amazing.
and there were joick moments like woah!!

xstarxphishx at CUF.

tackling and laughing and for some reason they were miming punching stuff...?

nick mostly though...he was like...looking abusive and laughing at the same time.

i kinda started to get worried.

and joe started shooting his hand/finger gun in the air cause everyone was screaming hahah

oh mannn

houseofclass at CUF.

There needs to be video. But of course... Closed set. Blah.

Title: Never Before
Author: Severus_Falter
Rating: G
Characters: Joe Jonas, Nick Jonas, Kevin Jonas, Papa J, Big Rob
Genre: Angst, Fluff
Summary: Joe's got a proposal, not one with a ring. It's just that Nick's been a jerk, and so has Joe, and they really need to fix it.
Disclaimer: It will soon become very obvious that I have no affiliation with those who work with or are in fact the Jonas Brothers.

( More proof Nick likes to angst when i'm least expecting it. )

Nick said both of them were gay, and Joe's eyes widened. Danielle didn't seem like the type at all, she was actually really pretty.

Huh.

Title: No You Are...
Author: Severus_Falter
Rating: G
Characters: Joe Jonas, Nick Jonas, Kevin Jonas
Genre: Fluff, Romance
Summary: They're in Paris and it's cold, but romantic, so Joe decides to start a small game of words with Nick that ends with a surprise.
Disclaimer: It will soon become very obvious that I have no affiliation with those who are in fact, or work with the Jonas Brothers.

( Probably lame. )

Due to Nikki making so much sense, I should probably clarify a few things so you can all be disappointed. I agree they sound younger, because - well, because they were. But I didn't really think - OceanUp is made of losers, okay? But that song I posted yesterday is from an album All Wrapped Up 2 but when I saw that: I've never heard of that album before and I've done a lot of searching for Jonas Brothers music. A LOT. So I figured it must be new like was being said. Now that I've listened to Nikki's voice of reason though, I'm gonna take a guess without bothering to look it up and say that song is definitely old, so the mainstream-ness of it won't do any good, didn't do any good. But that doesn't make me any less proud of love it less.

(Or ... lol, crazyqt13 said it's possible it was recorded a while back, just never released until now.)

Sorry if I confused you guys. Proceed to throw tomatoes in OceanUp's direction, and if you feel the need, mine.

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You guys should also let me know which stories you want me to continue the most. If you care about which ones are updated first, that is.


ETA: I really do feel awful about this. I'm so sorry... I misunderstood a million things, and I just - yeah.

I... I don't know what my thoughts are on this. DO YOU HEAR THEM? Now on the one hand, they sound less... unique. But on the other hand they sound main stream enough to get noticed better, and more like Bowling For Soup, so they're actually still really unique. Plus no one can ever sound quite like them. And it IS them, so it's still THEM <333 And. Um.



(Just to clarify. I didn't actually cry. My face just looked like a troll for a couple of minutes there.)

Thank you SOSOSO much to sweetcaroline92 for posting this to her journal and sharing. My heart is so big for them. SO big I can hardly stand it *pecks each boy on the cheek and tugs Kevin to her bed room*

Title: My Armor Isn't Fire Proof
Author: Severus_Falter
Rating: PG-13
Characters: Joe Jonas, Nick Jonas, Selena Gomez, Sterling Knight, Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus, Taylor Lautner
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: The space ship gets small some days, but the world they live in is infinite.
Disclaimer: It will soon become very obvious that I have no affiliation with those in this fic.

( No guitars in space. No princesses either. )

Title: Never Before
Author: Severus_Falter
Rating: G
Characters: Joe Jonas, Nick Jonas
Genre: Fluff with accents of Angst
Summary: Joe's got a proposal, not one with a ring. It's just that Nick's been a jerk, and so has Joe, and they really need to fix it.
Disclaimer: It will soon become very obvious that I have no affiliation with those who work with or are in fact the Jonas Brothers.

( The most ridiclous thing Nick has ever heard (okay, probably not, but so?)... )